I may have been a bit too critical and cynical, but that is how i have been for a long time now guys
My previous blog was anger - misdirected.
Most of you are bad, still not there but some of you are really good, better than me even.
This is my apology for my immaturity and lack of clear analysis. Its not your fault for the way most of you are. I over assumed and excepted a bit too much..no one gets a harry potter, or srk college life, or elena's for that, iit was iit and i shudn't have had notions.
No one is perfect, it took me time to realise that...and i am so sorry for judging you and for hating you. For thinking that you were low-lives incapable of survival.
But you needed your time to grow, to learn and to adapt. And you have done it pretty well. The flaws remain, but they will go away.
Fingers crossed, the awkwardness should vanish before that...
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
Interns and People
Facebook was cluttered with congos and studappas and gods and acquisitions.
Chat statuses were a brag.
And now the gods and the rest are at their respective interns and funnily it takes a lot to change maximum.
There's bombay and bangalore and delhi and one more...
The point of doing an intern is ambiguous.
Are they trying to tell us that even after getting our degree to earn that 6 figure sum we have to work 9-6?
Do we have to follow -> worker bee -->team leader--->lead management---> middle management--->executive management (finally ceo,cto and the rest)?
Who gave IITs the liberty to toy around with the idea of engineers becoming managers?
I scream : where is the technical work?
Where is the mathematics and computing in my intern?
All that there is design+coding+abstract modulation...
But then most of the people won't even ask this question...they are just blind runners in the rat race...people stop and ask yourself is this what you really want to do? Is this what puts a smile on your face every morning? Is this what makes you want to jump out of bed in the morning?
I know you have your reasons...family problems,peer pressure,financial problems...but these are smaller compared to the ones you have and you don't know : confidence, identity issues, communication, inferiorities ....the former will go away...or maybe never will,...but once you align your self with your mind, you will be in sync with the universe... and then your karma will work.
Its been three years, and there is still that awkwardness, people are still hesitant, they don't know,they are scared, they can't speak , abuse..where are the talks of ruling the world, where is the college spirit of making a change, where are the revolutionaries?
All we have is bunch of bitches who enjoy gossip more than girls and are more active in back stabbing and cross -games than any other existing department.
When will the guys become the men?
Chat statuses were a brag.
And now the gods and the rest are at their respective interns and funnily it takes a lot to change maximum.
There's bombay and bangalore and delhi and one more...
The point of doing an intern is ambiguous.
Are they trying to tell us that even after getting our degree to earn that 6 figure sum we have to work 9-6?
Do we have to follow -> worker bee -->team leader--->lead management---> middle management--->executive management (finally ceo,cto and the rest)?
Who gave IITs the liberty to toy around with the idea of engineers becoming managers?
I scream : where is the technical work?
Where is the mathematics and computing in my intern?
All that there is design+coding+abstract modulation...
But then most of the people won't even ask this question...they are just blind runners in the rat race...people stop and ask yourself is this what you really want to do? Is this what puts a smile on your face every morning? Is this what makes you want to jump out of bed in the morning?
I know you have your reasons...family problems,peer pressure,financial problems...but these are smaller compared to the ones you have and you don't know : confidence, identity issues, communication, inferiorities ....the former will go away...or maybe never will,...but once you align your self with your mind, you will be in sync with the universe... and then your karma will work.
Its been three years, and there is still that awkwardness, people are still hesitant, they don't know,they are scared, they can't speak , abuse..where are the talks of ruling the world, where is the college spirit of making a change, where are the revolutionaries?
All we have is bunch of bitches who enjoy gossip more than girls and are more active in back stabbing and cross -games than any other existing department.
When will the guys become the men?
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
For my dear friend
That i am writing this now, cements my belief that change is constant.
I left you out then,cuz we didn talk much, and people didn talk nicely about you, and then there was the lab "bad" experience...
But since then times have changed,perspectives have altered and this one is written specially for you.
Remember that paper we thought we would do. Sorry it didn work out. Wasn't really that keen, and well there was a dearth of material, and i do not function well in free environments.
But nevertheless thank you for putting up with me. Feels nice to know that (sometimes) you are not the only crazy person around.
You are nice, and sweet and simple. Add a bit of concrete ambition to your hardwork, the sky's the limit then.
I left you out then,cuz we didn talk much, and people didn talk nicely about you, and then there was the lab "bad" experience...
But since then times have changed,perspectives have altered and this one is written specially for you.
Remember that paper we thought we would do. Sorry it didn work out. Wasn't really that keen, and well there was a dearth of material, and i do not function well in free environments.
But nevertheless thank you for putting up with me. Feels nice to know that (sometimes) you are not the only crazy person around.
You are nice, and sweet and simple. Add a bit of concrete ambition to your hardwork, the sky's the limit then.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Part Two
I really don't know what to write here. There are lots of crazy ideas and my fingers hurt(typing like crazy these days(my books) and then the guitar) but then a few things have to be written...
Him I've noticed mostly reading...i think the other day it was Ian Fleming...and a few other books...keeps to himself...i don't know why....
Then there is he...we had a rough history...i want you to know ...like i had said the other night when u came to ask for the paper... i had nothing to do with it all...those seniors were mad...and am sorry for some of it...but then you had made some girl call me and the way she spoke ticked me off...i hope that didn't go around saying bad stuff about me...apart from the history...he is very cool...no seriously...with all that editing and all...
He is used to be seen on the front benches of every class with his somewhat peculiar queries and the prompt answers...that was in the first semester..always on the first bench...him and a friend of his picked up mal courses like crazy in the third semester...
And then him...I hope someday you will get over the pic...dude try and understand...it was so very tempting...so very...he is nice...talks to many girls...we have nicknames of our own for him...and yes things you do, do catch the fairer sex's attention...but then let me tell you something...u were oblivious to something very interesting...but its gone now...five years from now maybe I'll tell you and maybe you will laugh...but then for today...he fits the well dressed talkative image, though I don't understand why all those surprised looks when you score according to you unbelievable marks...hehe
He is very sweet, very sober, and all the girls like him...has held positions and well carried them off very nicely...effectively..and the way he breezes through bloody courses is ...well to think of it expected...given his gold...though i wonder how many words of hindi has he learnt ....next time maybe...
A few more to be immortalized in the bytes....but for now my fingers hurt bad...and a fantasy is in making...
Him I've noticed mostly reading...i think the other day it was Ian Fleming...and a few other books...keeps to himself...i don't know why....
Then there is he...we had a rough history...i want you to know ...like i had said the other night when u came to ask for the paper... i had nothing to do with it all...those seniors were mad...and am sorry for some of it...but then you had made some girl call me and the way she spoke ticked me off...i hope that didn't go around saying bad stuff about me...apart from the history...he is very cool...no seriously...with all that editing and all...
He is used to be seen on the front benches of every class with his somewhat peculiar queries and the prompt answers...that was in the first semester..always on the first bench...him and a friend of his picked up mal courses like crazy in the third semester...
And then him...I hope someday you will get over the pic...dude try and understand...it was so very tempting...so very...he is nice...talks to many girls...we have nicknames of our own for him...and yes things you do, do catch the fairer sex's attention...but then let me tell you something...u were oblivious to something very interesting...but its gone now...five years from now maybe I'll tell you and maybe you will laugh...but then for today...he fits the well dressed talkative image, though I don't understand why all those surprised looks when you score according to you unbelievable marks...hehe
He is very sweet, very sober, and all the girls like him...has held positions and well carried them off very nicely...effectively..and the way he breezes through bloody courses is ...well to think of it expected...given his gold...though i wonder how many words of hindi has he learnt ....next time maybe...
A few more to be immortalized in the bytes....but for now my fingers hurt bad...and a fantasy is in making...
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Some of us
Opinions, view-points, the content are solely my form of expression, an experimental write –up. He and she are based on true characters. Readers should not be offended at the below…no offense was intended…obliviously guys if I don’t like you…I’ll say it to your face and not waste my imagination at it… :)
The batch of 2008…the mca batch of 2008…33 of us…here are a few …as I see them…
First there is her…she is nice…most say even elegant…yes for most of the part…a bit elegant…intelligent: books and studies, no doubts…world matters – just like the rest of them, well adapted…diplomatic almost…I don’t like that…just like I don’t like double standards…but then I think peer pressure gets the better of most us …and I’d prefer if she’d avoid that with me cuz I can see through…lovable sometimes…a bit of a child still, determined yes…has the “ I want to be somewhere in my life…the rest can wait”, I like that…longer hair do look nice, but sweetheart do take proper care…
Then is she…petite…and very adorable…innocent, child-like, frank, always to the point, logically connecting most of the things, but then not smiling often(why?)…we’ve had our moments, jogs in the morning, baddy sessions, quite a sport…has the required enthusiasm…and is waiting for things to happen to her…quite popular among the other sex, and for good reasons…talkative: sometimes…walks real fast…yes and of course, intelligent : logic,studies and books : bloody hardworking…worldly matters : can wait…but then I have a feeling…never mind…I like her…she’s cute…
Then there is her…came very close to become a good friend of mine…bubbly,jumpy,funny,talkative,
Hyper, cute, bloody awesome hair, hard-working, keeps on doing a lot of stuff, always actively involved in something or the other…has a range of crushes…and talks so much…so much…has quite a ****…but then she lives in a shell, most of the times…
…dare-devilry and courage : two things I’ve hardly noticed in anybody around me…why are people so scared?
She is there too…doing a lot of things…diplomatic…cute…chubby…intelligent : books and studies, well-informed, an analogue of the girl from the non-iitian crowd…likable all the time…focused…values all things and then works accordingly…quite a ward-robe…has considerably developed her communication and leadership qualities…she is going to go places,already is…
There are the three of them…together…almost like sisters….attending lectures, doing things…even going out…but then a few things happen and they go different ways… I don’t understand that … I don’t even like that…
For them…who do I begin with? There are so many of them…I talk to only a few… I’ll start with him
He stands out…on purpose? I don’t know. Achiever yes, arrogant, yes, intelligent : books and studies, yes…never heard him abuse, though…hmmm…cute, a bit…looks like one of the screen stars…I don’t think he goes to the gym…from what people say : studies all day long…have seen him around with “a” girl in the nights…who is she?...confident, yes…its his standing out and the apart thing that I like…most don’t like him that much…thass alright…achievements come at a price…and only some of us are willing to pay…
Then there is him…he catches the girls eye…I don’t why…was on my list of the lookable boys of my dep…achiever yes…a bit too talkative…cool…aloof…belongs to what I consider the cool crowd of mca…tall : ok…what else? …oh we had this course together…which had a lab…and he went on and on and on about how he had had his fun in the first year but now it was time to get serious and do stuff in life…had his views on other guys too…had a few suggestions for me too…I wonder whether he?...but they never tell me do they?...one of these days maybe…all of us…but then I wonder how many of them are that broad minded…
Atleast he is …or I think he is…he covers his voice well…hiding the emotions…but then… I come to know most of the times…does things in a different way…I like that…yes he has made a name for himself in the designer’s circuit…is a chief ed too…but do you write?...has his contacts…does his stuff…has gone to France…i hope he makes me proud and is doing stuff there…hehe
This guy I’d like to know better…his hands fascinated me once upon a time…and from what I’ve heard of him…has been what I wanted to hear…we’ve had a few labs together…there’s always time…which will tell…
He is big…wow…but adorable and likable at the same time…talks easily…friendly…helpful…intelligent: more than books and studies…u’d think he’d be gyming and weight-lifting and all that but somebody else does that…
This somebody does that…and how does he given …but then he does…and is good at it too…studies are all cool…and well thass ok…haven’t talked that much…but belongs to the chill janta…yes mca batch has some hopes after all…
He is a friend of a friend…and I like her…she is crazy…and she thinks highly of him…says he is a very nice guy…very supportive,protective,caring…is a good friend of hers…and though he is into books but then from what she says of him…contradictory…not the studies part…but something else…yes and let me tell you friend of a friend…girls think you are nice…some girls even like you, like that…and they think you are decent and all…I stick with my friend says…I like her yaar…
Studies and sleep…this would characterize most of the guys …but then this fellow sleeps so much…and is always online at odd hours…chats, talks to everybody…has a weird sense of humour…tried to april fool me…but still a bit shy and reserved…and yes very shy…
He is nice to talk to…we did talk a lot initially …but then I don’t know what happened…was sweet enough to get a book xeroxed for me…but that was ages ago…and grown an attitude…but I’ve just seen him use it on others…he’s polite and well …ahem!...but her I can leave out…studies and all keep him occupied…
There are more…and I will write…
The batch of 2008…the mca batch of 2008…33 of us…here are a few …as I see them…
First there is her…she is nice…most say even elegant…yes for most of the part…a bit elegant…intelligent: books and studies, no doubts…world matters – just like the rest of them, well adapted…diplomatic almost…I don’t like that…just like I don’t like double standards…but then I think peer pressure gets the better of most us …and I’d prefer if she’d avoid that with me cuz I can see through…lovable sometimes…a bit of a child still, determined yes…has the “ I want to be somewhere in my life…the rest can wait”, I like that…longer hair do look nice, but sweetheart do take proper care…
Then is she…petite…and very adorable…innocent, child-like, frank, always to the point, logically connecting most of the things, but then not smiling often(why?)…we’ve had our moments, jogs in the morning, baddy sessions, quite a sport…has the required enthusiasm…and is waiting for things to happen to her…quite popular among the other sex, and for good reasons…talkative: sometimes…walks real fast…yes and of course, intelligent : logic,studies and books : bloody hardworking…worldly matters : can wait…but then I have a feeling…never mind…I like her…she’s cute…
Then there is her…came very close to become a good friend of mine…bubbly,jumpy,funny,talkative,
Hyper, cute, bloody awesome hair, hard-working, keeps on doing a lot of stuff, always actively involved in something or the other…has a range of crushes…and talks so much…so much…has quite a ****…but then she lives in a shell, most of the times…
…dare-devilry and courage : two things I’ve hardly noticed in anybody around me…why are people so scared?
She is there too…doing a lot of things…diplomatic…cute…chubby…intelligent : books and studies, well-informed, an analogue of the girl from the non-iitian crowd…likable all the time…focused…values all things and then works accordingly…quite a ward-robe…has considerably developed her communication and leadership qualities…she is going to go places,already is…
There are the three of them…together…almost like sisters….attending lectures, doing things…even going out…but then a few things happen and they go different ways… I don’t understand that … I don’t even like that…
For them…who do I begin with? There are so many of them…I talk to only a few… I’ll start with him
He stands out…on purpose? I don’t know. Achiever yes, arrogant, yes, intelligent : books and studies, yes…never heard him abuse, though…hmmm…cute, a bit…looks like one of the screen stars…I don’t think he goes to the gym…from what people say : studies all day long…have seen him around with “a” girl in the nights…who is she?...confident, yes…its his standing out and the apart thing that I like…most don’t like him that much…thass alright…achievements come at a price…and only some of us are willing to pay…
Then there is him…he catches the girls eye…I don’t why…was on my list of the lookable boys of my dep…achiever yes…a bit too talkative…cool…aloof…belongs to what I consider the cool crowd of mca…tall : ok…what else? …oh we had this course together…which had a lab…and he went on and on and on about how he had had his fun in the first year but now it was time to get serious and do stuff in life…had his views on other guys too…had a few suggestions for me too…I wonder whether he?...but they never tell me do they?...one of these days maybe…all of us…but then I wonder how many of them are that broad minded…
Atleast he is …or I think he is…he covers his voice well…hiding the emotions…but then… I come to know most of the times…does things in a different way…I like that…yes he has made a name for himself in the designer’s circuit…is a chief ed too…but do you write?...has his contacts…does his stuff…has gone to France…i hope he makes me proud and is doing stuff there…hehe
This guy I’d like to know better…his hands fascinated me once upon a time…and from what I’ve heard of him…has been what I wanted to hear…we’ve had a few labs together…there’s always time…which will tell…
He is big…wow…but adorable and likable at the same time…talks easily…friendly…helpful…intelligent: more than books and studies…u’d think he’d be gyming and weight-lifting and all that but somebody else does that…
This somebody does that…and how does he given …but then he does…and is good at it too…studies are all cool…and well thass ok…haven’t talked that much…but belongs to the chill janta…yes mca batch has some hopes after all…
He is a friend of a friend…and I like her…she is crazy…and she thinks highly of him…says he is a very nice guy…very supportive,protective,caring…is a good friend of hers…and though he is into books but then from what she says of him…contradictory…not the studies part…but something else…yes and let me tell you friend of a friend…girls think you are nice…some girls even like you, like that…and they think you are decent and all…I stick with my friend says…I like her yaar…
Studies and sleep…this would characterize most of the guys …but then this fellow sleeps so much…and is always online at odd hours…chats, talks to everybody…has a weird sense of humour…tried to april fool me…but still a bit shy and reserved…and yes very shy…
He is nice to talk to…we did talk a lot initially …but then I don’t know what happened…was sweet enough to get a book xeroxed for me…but that was ages ago…and grown an attitude…but I’ve just seen him use it on others…he’s polite and well …ahem!...but her I can leave out…studies and all keep him occupied…
There are more…and I will write…
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